posted on November 9, 2011 with Notes

I really like someone. I think it’s him, but I really don’t know… Tomorrow is the first day of the week when my magic eraser said someone would ask me out, so let’s see if it was right!

~Love Bipolar~

posted on October 29, 2011 with 0 notes

I feel sad. I feel like something’s missing and I don’t know why. I came to this world to love, but it’s so hard. I don’t have enough love left in me for myself, but I still keep giving. Then when it becomes too overwhelming I get angry. I hurt my friends. That is NOT what I want to do, and it doesn’t help. Hurting people never helps.

~Love Bipolar~

posted on October 29, 2011 with Notes

I still like him, but what if he’s just a rebound? Why can I not tell the difference?! Sometimes I think I like guys my friends don’t approve of for the sole purpose of feeling like a rebel, but I don’t even realize! I confuse myself!! I don’t know why I like him, which is why I think maybe I don’t.. but I’m pretty sure I do.. but what if i don’t? I’m always saying things like “live life with no regrets”, “flirt shamelessly”, and I do flirt, but what if I lead someone on too much? I’m scared. Scared to lose my friends for a guy. Scared to lose a guy for my friends. Scared to flirt with the guys I ACTUALLY like!! I can’t keep living like this! I don’t know what I want anymore. I don’t know what’s good for me. Whenever I seriously like someone, I consider the possibility of them hitting me! I know it’s stupid and unlikely, but I’m scared!

~Love Bipolar~

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